Woah, this I wasn't aware of. I don't think anyone on the forums even knew about this.
"Also my gaming buddies mate wasn't even around for two years that is until Battlefront came out. And now he is on semi-regular which annoys me since I reckon he will go offline again for an extended period of time once Battlefront gets boring. Along with that my favourite Battlefield chums only seem to join parties containing the two people who caused part of me to die. As well as force my days and work shifts to drag since there is nothing for me to look forward to when I go home.
We on the forums are your friends! We support you and all the hard work you do on the various Forza games.
I can relate to what you stated above, losing a long time friend.
I've moved 2 times in my life since meeting this friend of mine. The first move was the hardest, knowing you couldn't just run over and knock on their door. To know you would have a restriction from seeing them. Yeah, I still was in contact with him (Facebook, MSN Messenger (at the time), etc), but it wasn't the same. We had been friends, almost like family since the age of about 6. I'm 20 now. 14 years ago I met him. We would do everything together as friends, bike races, video gaming, sleepovers, and so on. We were the best of friends. Now, where we relate is when I moved away from where I grew up for 13 years, the apartment my mother brought me up in. After the move, my friend started to accept the fact I wasn't around very much anymore, yeah, I visited him now and then, but it wasn't the same anymore. I remember crying the night before we moved, remembering all the great memories I've had, not just with my friend, but in the neighborhood as a whole. Anyway, he moved on, and started slowly getting in with the wrong group of people, drugs, illegal spray painting on private property and so on. Eventually, he just stopped contacting me entirely. I was heartbroken, wondering why he stopped talking to me, while at the same time, trying to get use to the new area we moved to, as well as trying to make new friends as well. All of this happening at once, it messed with my head. Made me wonder where my life was going. Yeah, life has it's up's and down's, but this was mentally aching. At the time, I was very shy, didn't like greeting myself to anyone, fearing that they might judge me. Then, a really great thing happened which would change me forever. I was offered to be a part of a group of friends, who would turn out to be a bunch of people I know now. That group changed my life, they accepted me for who I was, helped me cope with the loss of my first friend. That group of friends turned into almost half of the people in the grade I was in! I was in grade 7 going into grade 8 at the time.
What I'm trying to tell you, is that no matter what happens in life, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. No matter how long that tunnel is, there's always a light. You can get through this, just look at you! You're one of the best Forzatographers in the community. You share your feelings through photos, on a video game! Amazing!
For you to be able to think that in depth about your life, it shows me you're mentally strong. The human mind can do wonders, but sometimes it needs a break, time to refresh.
Think of your brain as a sponge, it soaks up information (whether you want it to or not), and can remember it. Sometimes, some memories are fonder than others, while some hit you like a train. When your brain (the sponge) become over capacity, it can mess with you emotionally. It's a sign, not to take the easy way out, but to take a break. Maybe even express your feeling to a psychiatrist if you feel it's that bad. Trust me, the easiest way isn't always the best. Stress can really put a strain on your life.
We here on the forums would be devastated if we heard you had taken the easy way out. You have a bright future, as we all do. We have common interests, we help, guide and push each other to do better.
If you need to talk, add me and send me an invite if I'm online.
Edited by user Thursday, January 7, 2016 5:47:20 PM(UTC)
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