Good luck Emmanuel, if you have a dream you must fight for this, if you have the skills it's time to show these. And every time you falling down it's time for fighting harder and find all positive things for restart again (it's not so simple for a lot of people I know).
Some year ago I've decided to leave university and start working as a graphic designer (in '99) without any professional knowledge in Photoshop and all the others graphic software. Now in '08 I'm a graphic designer, a Photoshop professional, I work with XPress, InDesign, Illustrator and I write as a journalist about cars (at high school my italian teacher sez me that I'm not really able to write). Does not matter what the others say, it's important what you think and what you are confident in your skills.
For the T10 people: hey mate, here we have a truly motivated man, who have a dream and want to make his dream come true... Edguy sez in a song "I believe in miracle they appens every day..." now it's time for a miracle :)
PS: sorry for my bad english... I'm studied it by myself
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